Blame it on the many dramatic changes that has happened since my arrival in perth almost 2 months ago. Stressful changes of settling down that is. No way was I expecting such a rocky start. After all, I am sociable and well travelled, having studied for many years abroad and previously spending 6 months in rural Thailand where no one spoke my language.
Let's check out the turbulence in my life that has put my skills of adaptation to test:
1) Drastic temp change. From 30 degrees tropical heat to a record low of -0.6 degrees in Perth. Imagine waking up in the mornings.
2) Saying good bye to my husband of barely a year. I will reunite with him only some months later. Maybe 3 months, maybe 6 or more.
3) Biggest conflict with my family ever. With no resolution to date.
4) Living with my mum - something I haven't done for 1 1/2 years since I moved out of home. I have forgotten what it's like to live with parents.
5) Buying my second car in my life. Yay! The silver lining of the cloud.
6)Shopping for furniture and household stuff - again. I've never been one for shopping and yes, I find shopping decisions particularly painful.
7) Searching for a job and not being able to find one for almost a month. The longest job search ever in my life.
8) Living on the tightest budget I have ever set on myself. Bills still have to be paid.
9) Having to worry about gardening, weeds and reticulation. (Do I look like I have a green thumb?)
10) Missing my pets (Trixie and Bailey) back home and worrying if they are well. Wish I can bring them over.
11) My computer crashing. I guess about time - it's 5 years old.
I always thought that I defied the norm - that I am not a creature of routine. I have always enjoyed having changes in my life and believed they were healthy challenges for the soul. However, these trying times have proven to be crunch time for me. I seem to have lost all inspiration and mood to enjoy the simple joys I normally like. The feeling of frustration and restlessness seems to be brooding in the recess of my brain. I don't feel like doing much other then sulking and being a couch potato.
So yes, I do admit I will like to settle down, stay in one place, work the same job and nest in a comfortable community for the next 5 years or more. My confession is a bit shocking to myself. Maybe age and maturity is finally hitting me hard on the head.
2 comments:
Hey Drey...u're very missed! Hope things straighten out for u really soon! Take care and drop us an email whenever u can ok!
Hang in there, girl! Don't let those dreadful "down" feelings keep u in the doldrums for too long. Easier said than done, but think positive, think "never say die", think happy things and think "Faith". Pick yourself up when u are done moping around, conquer the blues and show the world your stuff :)
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